Seindahnya dunia (/cinta) ini takkan seindah bila kumilikimu dan ku milikmu. Seandainya memang bukan kita yang menentuukan, berikanlah aku satu jalan ya Tuhan.
6 November 2012
He said that now they’re in different way.
She tried to make both of them laugh, cause that’s the very least she could
afford, the very best she can do to hide her pain.
He said that he wanted to move on. She’s
fine. He said that he don’t wants her to get hurts, that he will keep looking
for her, watch her, and guide her somehow. She said nothing, but it doenst mean
she felt nothing.
She stays in silent,
drown in her mind, keeping her emotions not to blabber out. He sits there and
waiting, read her face for a clue he’s searching. He said he’s going no where,
that the door will always open for her but he will peep to another door. She
said nothing.
She went outside for an air to clear her
mind, for her brain to settle down. He stays in the room, trying to gather all
things he arranged before.
He went outside and get back in. she put
her cigar down and followed him. He said nothing.
She ask him to describe her in one word. He
answered, ‘almost’. She freezed. He ask
if that time it was him instead of that other guy, would that make any
different? She said yes. He got stoned
with nothing to said, the pain is overwhelming. She said she knew what it feels
like.
He hold her hand, touch her forehead with
his. She answers the moves, curious with what he will do next. He invite her to
pray together. She said yes, and for the very first time in her life she went into pray with a guy whose after her.
He ask God for her to never get hurt, he
ask God for her to never feel so much pain again. He ask for both of the to be
safe, and whatever the best for them to happened. For both of the to be sincere
with this decision, with everything happened and those who will come along. She
smiles when theyre finished, not having anything to said or respons.
He said, “I love you”.She got stoned. He ask is there anything that she wants to
say. She said she had nothing to say, she talked enough.
Its 10.30 pm already, they get inside the
car. He drove her home.
***
'home' is somewhere safe and sound,
home is where the heart is.
all the best for you, hommie :)
